Do I LoOk liKe I caRe?

more is less, less is more

2012-01-17T08:28:00.000-08:00

wah, rasenye da lama x mencurahkn idea kat alam maya ni..

ideanya byk, cuma masa je yg x banyak..

seperti slh satu wasiat Imam Hassan Al-Bana :

"Kewajipan kita lebih banyak daripada masa yang ada pada kita,

oleh itu gunakanlah masa dengan sebaik-baiknya

dan ringkaskanlah perlaksanaannya."

tp hri ni tbe2 smngt nk menulis tu berkobar-kobar plak kn..

em, pernah dnga kan org kata sometimes less is more..

yeah, i guess that's true..

because sometimes, no matter what you do,

people won't recognize your effort

they just care to judge, not to appreciate..

YES, it is true that the only recognition we need is ALLAH's,

but it would be nice if peoples around show some appreciation.

its not that we should hope for something in return when we do good deed,

BUT it would be REALLY nice if the first word that come out is not a critics..

however, in the end, it's not that we will be waiting for,

it's barakah from ALLAH which we desire the most..

because after all,

"aku tak mati dikeji, tak hidup untuk dipuji"

-quoted from someonesomeone

in life, we always aiming to do the best..

in everything we do, no matter what, because we wanted to be the best..

the best FRIEND, the best DAUGHTER, the best PARENT, the best STUDENT

and of course the best SLAVE of ALLAH..

and we were always aiming to do something BIG,

because we thought that BIG is the BEST

what we did not realize is that BIG is not the BEST,

BEST is the BEST, even if it is SMALL

subhanallah.alhamdulillah.allahuakbar.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : thanks for all the love and the hate.

two things that makes us stronger.than ever.

PALESTINE

2011-12-19T05:48:00.000-08:00

the first week of 4th block just flew like the wind,

the exhaustion from the 3rd block exam is still remaining..

yet, life must go on..

dah nak UNIS..lg brapa hri je..

in less than two months, pimples would be all over my face,

i'll be anwering someone's question with absolutely-no-relation-at-all answer..

i'll be miserable..tu baru sbb unis..

mereka2 yg dekat PALESTIN?

masyaAllah, kuatnya saudara2 kita :'(

last year, there was one program organized by the senior,

PEACE FOR PALESTINE..

and one of the activities was a quiz..

out of nowhere, somehow, me and nadi was selected to represent our batch..

and it was like....WHAT???

i know nothing besides the fact that Palestinian is having a very hard time

being tortured by the Israeli and only God can help them..

so, from that moment i realized how ignorant i am towards my brothers and sisters in Palestine.

they were struggling, fighting for their home, for their family, and for their country.

oh God, i seek forgiveness from you Ya Allah..

forgive my ignorance, forgive my carelessness..

give them strength Ya Rahman,

answer their du'a Ya Rahim..

destroy those who are against them Ya Rabb..

and few days back, i watched something on youtube

entitled TEARS OF GAZA..

and yup, tears flowing, nose reddening,

it was a very heart wrenching video..

i think everyone should watch it..

imagine, when we were about 4 years old,

what we were doing?

but in Palestine, a 4 year old girl

was hugging her little sibling who were injured during the bombing,

calming the baby who cried 'mom...mom....'

and saying, ' ya habibi, here is mom..here is mom..'

because she herself don't know the whereabouts of their mom..

whether their mom is alive or by then belong together with the syuhada'..

and there was one moment that struck me the most,

is when one of the Palestinian were telling story

of how he lost his whole family when their home was bombed..

all he was left with is his youngest daughter..

he lost his wife, sons and daughter named FARAH..

may Allah bless them all..

till then,

XOXO

p/s : people change, either towards the good or bad..

although its a bit late..hihi

2011-12-12T08:53:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FINA!

hope all your wishes will come true..

and hope you will get what you need..

semoga kita sama2 sabat di jalan-Nya, insyaAllah :)

" ....dan Dia memberinya rezeki dr arah yg tdk disangka-sangkanya.

Dan barang siapa bertawakal kpd Allah,

nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan (keperluan) nya.

Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan-Nya.

Sungguh, Allah telah mengadakn ketentuan bg setiap sesuatu...."

[65 : 3]

umur kita adalah rezeki dr Allah..

Allah masih bg kita peluang utk laksanakan apa yg belum terlaksana..

Semoga Allah mencukupkan sgala keperluan..

semoga umur yg brtmbh akn lbh mematangkan kita,

tp sesungguhnya, tdk ada yg lebih sempurna selain ktetapan Allah..

because He knows best, He knows everything..

SAAAAYYYYAAAANNNGGGGGG FINAAA <3

p/s: nak gulab jamuunnnnnnnn :p

faham

2011-08-05T22:38:00.000-07:00

"i think it's DIC because all the symptoms are leading us to that! "

"his blood count are normal, but why still he's having all that symptoms?"

"do a lumbar puncture and examine his CSF level!"

fuuuuhh, dulu masa tgk series HOUSE mmg x faham pape..

tgk semata-mata sbb nk bg ada feel doktor..haha

tp skrg ble dah belajar sume tu,

ble tgk baru la mulut ternganga ooooohhhhhh,

baru lah rasa bermakna tgk, dpt lah manfaat jugak..

baru lah faham w/pn xde la igt sgt pon sbnanye.

sama lah mcm kehidupan seharian kita,

kalau kita faham sesuatu tu, senang utk kita menerima dan mengamalkan.

contohnya, dalam agama..

bila kita faham agama,

dgn senang kita akan melaksanakan tuntutan kita sbgai hamba Allah.

dan untuk kita faham agama,

semua tu berbalik kpd diri kita masing2..

hendak seribu daya, x nak seribu dalih,

tp kalau diri kita berdalih, cuba renungkan balik,

kalau kita bagi alasan2 tu semua kat Allah,

then, kita mintak nk msk syurga, agak2 cane?

" Ya Allah, sesungguhnya petunjukMu sudah jelas,

Kau bukakanlah pintu hati kami Ya Rahman,

Kau kurniakanlah taufik dan hidayah buat kami Ya Rahim..

sesungguhnya, Kau lah sebaik-baik sandaran dan sebaik-baik penolong "

dan berkawanlah dgn mereka2 yg dpt mmbntu kita utk memahami agama.

fahamlah bukan sekadar dengan fikiran, ttp fahamlah melalui hati..

" Dan org2 yg beriman, laki2 dan perempuan

sebagian mereka menjadi penolong bagi sebagian yg lain.

Mereka menyuruh (berbuat) yg makruf,

dan mencegah dari yang mungkar,

melaksanakan solat, menunaikan zakat

dan taat kpd Allah dan Rasul-Nya.

Mereka akan diberikan rahmat oleh Allah.

Sungguh Allah Maha Perkasa, Maha Bijaksana "

(9:71)

till then,

XOXO

p/s : bantulah sesama kita :)

2011-07-28T06:05:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HALIS!

with love,

KAMI

till then,

XOXO

p/s : buat pngtahuan semua dia pakai braces dh skrg,

tp xde plak gmbr gigi besi dlm laptop..haha

subhanallah.

2011-06-08T08:46:00.000-07:00

Selangkah anak perempuan keluar dari rumah tanpa menutup aurat,

maka selangkah juga ayahnya itu hampir ke neraka.

Selangkah seorang isteri keluar rumah tanpa menutup aurat,

maka selangkah juga suaminya itu hampir ke neraka.

masyaAllah.

wahai sahabat, sanggupkah kita?

with love,

XOXO

p/s : papa, i miss you :(

my dearest

2011-06-07T10:02:00.000-07:00

hehe.TMJ sgt lenguh skrg.

sbb baru lps skype ngan Farhah Adnan

atau lbh femes dg nama panggilan paah

penat gelak2, siap tunjuk rumah lg..

selama ni skype lupa nk buat tour tunjuk rumah.hehe

i want to wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

semoga hari2 mendatang lebih baik dr hari2 semalam.

hope that our friendship stay sampai syurga ye.hee :)

saye awok.teehee.

suko gambar ni.time mais blackout.

with love,

XOXO

p/s : terharu x? muahahaha

well said

2011-06-06T21:40:00.000-07:00

shida wat status ni..suka sgt

"My lecturer said this morning:

"Never use the textbook for decision-making or diagnosing,

coz the content is pretty much obsolete

(no longer applicable in current medical situation)".

That's what happens when men create things.

But look at the Quran.

It's been around for more than 1000years

yet tooooo correct to be corrected.

That's what happens when GOD create things "

hm..sgt setuju dgn status beliau.hehe.

i would like to share a few verse from the Quran..

" Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang mendustakan ayat-ayat Kami

dan menyombongkan diri terhadapnya,

tidak akan dibukakan pintu-pintu langit bagi mereka,

dan mereka tidak akan masuk syurga,

sebelum unta masuk ke dalam lubang jarum.

Demikianlah Kami memberi balasan kepada

orang-orang yang berbuat jahat "

(7:40)

bersyukurlah kita kerana diberikan nikmat Iman dan Islam.

kerana kita berpeluang untuk menikmati syurga Allah.

oleh itu,

" Berangkatlah kamu baik dengan rasa ringan

maupun dengan rasa berat,

dan berjihadlah dengan harta dan jiwamu

di jalan Allah.

Yang demikian itu adalah lebih baik bagimu

jika kamu mengetahui "

(9:41)

berkorban tu susah.kalau senang, x panggil plak pengorbanan.

tapi Allah dah pesan, rasa ringan ke berat ke,

jihadlah di jalan-Nya kerana itu adalah lebih baik bg kita.

sebab..

" Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang,

padahal itu tidak menyenangkan bagimu.

Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu,

padahal itu baik bagimu,

dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu,

padahal itu tidak baik bagimu.

Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui "

(2:216)

yakinlah dengan kalam Allah.

kerana Allah Maha Mengetahui.

with love,

XOXO

p/s : doakan ktorg, ktorg nk exam ni :)

dah bulan rejab

2011-06-03T20:53:00.000-07:00

dah bulan rejab dah..

pastu sya'ban,pastu dah ramadhan..

biasanya 3 bulan ni la kita berlumba-lumba nk kejar pahala Allah

tp bkn la mksudnye bln lain tu x kejar..

cuma time ni dia lebih lg..hehe

pagi td nak pegi main tennis,

baru je start main 2,3 stroke,

hujan lebat..kejap je, pastu brenti..

mmg frust sbb da pegi tp xleh main..

tapi xpe, mesti ada hikmah tu..

boleh balik gayut ngan mama smpai stengah jam td..hehehe

em, pg tadi tiba2 hati ni disentuh ngan kata2 kawan2..

bersyukur lah kita masih ada perasaan bersalah,

perasaan berdosa bila kita buat salah..

bkn senang kita nk tepis godaan syaitan,

sbb mmg syaitan ni dah lama dah keje dia goda hamba Allah..

mmg dia dah expert sgt2 dah..

lagi kan Nabi Adam pon syaitan blh goda smpai keluar syurga,

apatah lg kita yg cuma insan biasa..

tapi tu bkn alasan utk kita terus buat dosa..

byg kan ada org yg hati dia dah mati,

kalo dlm medic, hati mati, dah xde la org tu,

tp dlm konteks yg lain, hati mati sbb bila dia buat dosa,

dia tak rasa apa2, tak rasa bersalah, x kenal dosa pahala..

tapi bersyukurlah kita sbb kita masih ada rasa malu bila buat dosa,

malu kat Allah, malu kat org sekeliling..

sekurang-kurangnya bila kita ada perasaan tu,

sikit sebanyak rasa tu akan halang kita dr terus buat maksiat, buat dosa..

bila ada org tegur kita, mmg bkn senang kita nk terima,

masing2 ada ego, tambah plak syaitan sentiasa dok bisik kat telinga ni,

jgn denga ckp dia, dia bknnye bagus sgt pon..

TAPI, cuba fikirkan balik,

bukang senang kita nk terima teguran,

bukan senang juga orang yg nk menegur kita.

bersyukurlah still ada kawan kita yg concern pasal kita.

bkn kawan yg jenis lantak kau lah..

kau buat tu, kau yg dpat dosa,

kubur lain2, sendiri tanggung lah..

kawan tu mngharapkan supaya kita akan jumpa balik kat syurga.

bukan senang kita nk terima teguran,

bukan senang juga kita blh masuk syurga.

syurga Allah itu mahal. tapi yakinlah dgn janji Allah

hamba yg bertakwa pasti akan terima ganjaran yg setimpal dengan amalannya.

" Tuhanmu tidak meninggalkan engkau (Muhammad)

dan tidak pula membencimu"

(93:3)

Allah itu sentiasa ada untuk kita.

tak pernah sekali pun meninggalkan kita.

tak pernah sekali pun membenci kita.

kalau rasa down, kalau rasa tension,

kalau rasa lonely, kalau rasa tak tenteram.

ingatlah. Allah ada dengan kita,

dan akan sentiasa ada dengan kita.

subhanallah.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : hari ni nadi kata dia nak buatkan spagheti. hehehe

over the sea?

2011-05-28T04:21:00.000-07:00

wah3..bila difikirkan balik,

aku ada kawan kat serata dunia.

tapi dekat kutub utara ngan kutub selatan xde la. (???)

kat africa pon xde. kat spain pon xde. kat papua new guinea pon xde.

okay tipu bukan serata dunia sgt la.

tp kt byk negara la..ala, hyperbola skt je.hua3

ada yg kat jepun, korea, aussie, america, france, uk, indon, cannada, india

ada yg dekat, ada yg jauh, ada yg panas, ada yg sejuk.

kalau nk difikirkan, aku yg dekat india ni

mmg jeles guling2 ngan dorg yg kt negara 4 musim tu.

tp org yg kt m'sia plak jeles sbb w/pon kt india tp at least dpt fly.

dpt biasiswa, alhamdulillah.terima kasih rakyat m'sia :)

secara jujurnya, mmg best blh belajar kt negara org.

blh kenal budaya lain, makanan lain.macam2.

sbb tu lah, sampai ada yg tulis kt blog dia,

dia x suka bdk2 scholarship..sbb gi jalan2 pakai duit rakyat.

itu sbb dia tgk the good side je.apa yg dia tgk

hanyalah gmbr bdk2 ni terkinja dpn eiffel tower.

dia tgk gambar bdk2 ni tersengih sbb dpt pegang salji.

sbb dia tgk gmbar bdk2 ni dok feeling ala2 syah jehan ngn mumtaz dpn taj mahal.

yg diorg pegi tu, saving dr duit elaun. mkn sekali sehari je sbb nk gi jalan2.

but just a piece of information..

tak semua benda indah belaka..

kalau bab agama, contohnya, yg dekat europe sana,

nk solat mana ada surau. ada yg solat tepi tangga je.

dah lah kena tahan dgn pandangan2 sinis sesetengah penduduk kt sana.

tapi xpe, tu semua jihad. Allah tahu.

kalau bab makanan plak, kalau kt m'sia mmg sng nk cari makanan halal.

tapi kalu kt oversea ni, susah.

nk beli something tu kena bertanya-tanya dulu.

dan bukannya senang nk pastikan benda tu halal.

kalau kt manipal ni x pe la, ada masyarakat Islam.

blh tanya imam. ada Islamic Youth Association (IYA) jugak.

tapi kalau kt europe sana? nasib baik diorg ade jugak pertubuhan2 Islam ni.

tp still kesian diorg tau.tp xpe, Allah tahu.

bab cuaca pulak..kalau kt manipal ni,

panas dia kadang2 melampau.lg panas dr m'sia.

kalu musim hujan plak, mmg teruk lah. sampai patah2 semua pokok.

kalau negara yg ada musim winter tu pulak,

sampai xde elektrik semua, sejuk pakai baju smpi berlapis-lapis.

sejuk sket2 tu best la.tp kalau dah sampai suhu negative tu,

hanya Allah yg faham.

tp xpe, yg penting Allah tahu.

kalau bab bencana alam plak, subhanallah.

tmbh2 skrg ni kan mmg climatic change sgt teruk.

tsunami, earthquake, volcanoes, u name it.

bahaya, takut..tiap2 hari gi kelas kena berjaga-jaga.

nk kena ready lari kalau ada apa2 jadi.

tp xpe, Allah tahu.

bab belajar pulak..ktorg dtg sini bukan suka2.

dtg nk menuntut ilmu..nk balik berjasa pada rakyat.

kalau dkt m'sia sekurang-kurang nya kalau tension,

blh balik jumpa family, peluk mak ayah.

ktorg kt sini hanya ada ktorg je.bergantung antara satu sama lain.

tp xpe, Allah tahu.

bab family..kita tak tahu apa akan jd pada kita.

tp sekiranya ditakdirkan apa2 terjadi pada kita atau family,

senang nk ziarah..tapi kalau kat sini,

hanya mampu tanya khabar dan berdoa dari jauh.

dan emosi ktorg bukanlah sekebal kereta kebal.

tp xpe, Allah tahu.

kalau nk cerita semua, mmg x hbs.

so, kita jgn pndang sesuatu tu from one side je.

BUKA MATA.BUKA MINDA.

dan jgn lah krn sesetengah golongan yg buat hal,

semua bdk scholarship dicop sbg pmbazir duit rakyat.

dan doalah supaya golongan kecik tu berubah..

jangan risau. Allah itu adil.

rezeki masing2 hanya Allah yg tahu

yakinlah. setiap apa yg terjadi tu ada hikmahnya.

yakinlah dgn janji Allah.

Allah Maha Mengetahui.

mungkin ni rezeki ktorg, ni jln terbaik utk ktorg.

doakan ktorg so that all of us can give you the best treatment that you can get.

moga Allah memberkati.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : rezeki tak dtg bergolek..usaha dan tawakkal.

bukan mudah bernafas dalam jiwa hamba

2011-05-28T03:55:00.000-07:00

hmm..selalu jadi mcm ni..

before bkak laptop, mmg berkobar-kobar nk blogging

tp bla dh bukak, idea terus hilang.

hmm..camano nk start ha..start yo lah, x kesah lah camano pon..

em..hari tu..ada la satu hari tu, x igt la bila..

ada la sorg kwn kt fb ni wat status..

x igt la ape exactly ayat dia tp mksudnya lbh kurang

ada org nasihat dia kot tp dia ckp susah nk terima

sbb org yg tegur tu pon x berapa baik sgt pon..

pastu ade la geng2 dia komen, agak lah..

diri sendiri pon x betul, ada hati nk tegur org lain..

tp yg menarik perhatian tu, ade la sorg senior ni dia komen,

"jgn nk tgk sgt keburukan org.."

hmm..betul apa yg dia ckp tu kan?

jawapan standard zmn skrg..

kalau nk tunggu org yg perfect dulu baru blh tegur,

mmg tak lah smpai bila2..

sbb sape yg perfect dlm dunia? tak gitu?

lagipun, kalau ye lah dia x baik pon,

tp apa yg ditegur tu baik kan?

apa kata kalau org yg menegur tu ada buat salah jugak,

kita tegur lah balik..

sbb bkn ke tu function kita?

utk saling ingat mengingatkan..

supaya sama2 dpt berubah, sama2 dpt jadi baik..

sama2 dpt pahala, sama2 berusaha mndapatkan kasih syg Allah.

" antara 3 sebab kenapa nasihat yg disampaikan, tidak sampai ke hati penerima.

pertama, kerana si penerima msh blm mndapat hidayah

krn hidayah itu milik Allah,

kedua, kerana dosa si penyampai yg membuatkan kata-katanya

tidak berjaya menyentuh hati sesiapa,

ketiga, kerana dosa si penerima yg telahmenggelapkan hatinya"

-kak long

nak ke kita tergolong dlm golongan2 tu?

tp mmg lah senang mulut nk berkata, tgn nk menaip.

tapi susah nk buat..ye x?

tapi tak terliurkah kita dgn syurga Allah?

mmg mula2 susah, tp cuba kita buat sikit2..

lama2 ok lah..

ada jugak yg jenis bila kena tegur,

dia buat depan yg menegur je..

bila ditanya kenapa?

jawapan, malulah, dia pernah tegur aku dulu..

malu la nk buat depan dia..

tapi yang Maha Melihat tu? yg tgk kita 24 hours a day, 7 days a week..

di mana letaknya malu kita terhadap Dia?

tolong ingatkan aku bila aku leka.

tolong ingatkan aku bila aku lupa.

tolong ingatkan aku bila aku alpa.

sbb aku nk jumpa korang lagi di syurga nnt. insyaAllah :)

till then,

XOXO

p/s : sejuk hati bila tgk ada yg istiqamah ^^

100 % attendance

2011-05-23T11:07:00.000-07:00

dah baca tajuk kat atas?kalau tanya bebudak mmmc ni,

semua mesti tau pasal benda ni..

kata2 yg biasa didengar :

" kalau x dpt naik pentas sbb distinction,

dpt naik sbb 100% attendance pon jadi lah "

hmm..tu lah konsep college ktorg..

whoever get 100% attendance,

meaning they didn't miss even one single class,

for the whole year,

will get a certificate stating you have attended this many classes and bla3

that's a good motivation for the students actually.

but for me, DULU, i didn't even care. sebelum aku faham.

but NOW,dah lain. i am aiming to get that 100% attendance.

i want to attend all the classes.

i want the certificate.

i want my photos to be in the next student brochure.heee :p

sbb sekarang aku dah faham.

kalau orang tanya kenapa?

aku akan jawab :

" belajar bidang perubatan tu fardhu kifayah dalam masyarakat,

tapi bagi seorang pelajar yg ambek course tu, hukum itu telah bertukar

kpd fardhu ain.maksudnya wajib dilaksanakan. jadi tak boleh ponteng kelas.

tak boleh tak belajar. tak boleh ambek mudah, pndang ringan. "

alhamdulillah aku faham sebelum terlambat.

betul wording tu.

better late than never.

insyaAllah.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : yeay.nk naik stage. teehee :)

sahabat saya

2011-05-16T22:25:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum semua :)

apa khabar? sihat?

ap kahabar iman? sihat jugak?

alhamdulillah..

em..baru lepas test pharmac..alhamdulillah lepas..

aim second year ni x nak fail lg class test ke exam block ke..

nak lulus semua..saya nk jd lebih baik dr thn lepas..

lebih baik trhadap Pencipta, trhdap makhluk yg diciptakan..

semalam skype dgn paah ngan shida..

kak long dah tdo..

bila dh tgk diorg, rase sebak plak..

sbb dah lama x jumpa kot..

tbe2 rasa rindu sgt..

pdhl selama ni berbalas komen je dkt fb..

tp tu lain..x sama dgn jumpa..

tp smlm happy sgt.

bila dh nk hbs tu rase mcm nk nanges.

mcm nk borak lg, tp kena baca buku sbb ade test.

xpe, nnt kita borak lg ye.

they are really good friends..

and they becoming better, insyaAllah.

semoga Allah mmberkati kami semua.

really hope to see them soon.

hopefully dpt jumpa la masa cuti raya nnt..

rindu nk tgk langit sama2.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : kami bersahabat kerana Allah.insyaAllah.

2011-05-11T10:52:00.000-07:00

i miss you.

2011-04-12T01:04:00.001-07:00

i need my own time.

i have my own issue.

i don't need unnecessary people in my already-crowded-life.

just for a second, think about others.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : tema skrg, buat post pendek2.

second year.

2011-04-10T02:48:00.000-07:00

it has been two weeks since class started.

i've heard this and that on second year subject,

but i try to keep my mind as neutral as i can.

somehow, it turned out to be true.

pharmac was hard, microb was boring,

patho is kinda interesting, forensic was ok.

weekends are the best.

after one year having class on saturday,

i finally get my weekend back.haha.

plus, all the housewarmingsss was great.

the food, the people, the warmness it bring.

rasa macam rapat.

walaupon ade yg makan dalam.

ye ke? no komen.teehee.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : sorry su sbb tak pegi pagi tadi..

2011-04-06T04:42:00.000-07:00

suka org yg bercakap berdasarkan ilmu.

ayat sedap didengar.

hati senang menerima.

p/s : erk, tapi time kelas ape cite plak?

2011-04-06T00:14:00.000-07:00

butakan mata.pekakkan telinga.

nauzubillah.

2011-04-04T10:53:00.000-07:00

may all your wishes come true.

with God blessings :)

alhamdulillah syukur :)

2011-02-28T11:04:00.000-08:00

after nearly one month and half struggling,

finally i can breathe normally :)

i pass my first year of medicine,

not with flying colours,

but enough to take me to the next stage,

second year :)

praise to the almighty,

Ya Allah, thanks for the good news..

till then,

XOXO

p/s : cpt la sampai rumah, nk melompat..eh silap, sujud syukur :)

2011-02-04T06:20:00.000-08:00

THE BEST THING

I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED

unis exam

2011-01-27T22:29:00.000-08:00

tinggal lagi 2 minggu je nk exam..

tapi biasalah, byk lagi yg x baca..

ape nk jadi ni?

xpe la, cuba buat yg terbaik je la eh kawan2..

doakan ktorg sume pass exam ni dgn cemerlang ye..

amin~

p/s : mulakan dengan bismillah, sudahi dgn alhamdulillah~

adil kah?

2010-12-18T08:57:00.000-08:00

teringat masa raya tahun lepas kot,

tgh borak2 kat rumah atuk sedara aku

pendengaran dia dh kureng sket la,

but one thing for sure, he loves to talk about his past.

he was a soldier, Askar Tanah Melayu.

it was a long time ago, but nay, he doesn't forget anything.

my late grandfather also was a soldier, Al-Fatihah~

so, i don't actually remember what we were talking,

but I only remember one sentence.

"manusia ni tak pernah adil, binatang je yg adil"

the truth is i can't really grab the meaning of that sentence,

what he's really trying to say.

seriously, sampai ke hari ni pon aku still dok fikir.

but that curiosity tak sampai tahap untuk gi tanya tok abah.

cuba kita kaitkan dgn kehidupan seharian.

for example, mahkamah.

i never really been in any court trial actually.

but usually this is how it will be conducted,i think so.

we have the lawyers and the judge, not forgotten the juries.

first, both the lawyers will debate their points and proves,

some only take days, while some may take years of time.

the judge will then ask the juries to discuss.

lastly, the hearing of the punishment.

INNOCENT or GUILTY.

but who really knows what really happen during the incident?

lets say that the defendant's lawyer was superb,

while the plaintiff's lawyer was o.k,

defendant is innocent-looking,

while the plaintiff is quite-a-murderer-looking,

kalau lawyer tu pandai putar belit and all,

plus, we have feelings.

all that can affects the decision.

sbb tu lah x semua trial dlm dunia ni betul.

sometimes, innocent people can be punished for something they didn't do.

because, human is not hundred percent fair.

another simple example,

kalau main basketball,

we will have two referees, one time-keeper, and one score-keeper.

ok, lets say when the game starts,

the referees have to keep track about what's happening between the players,

and just imagine, a referee, a normal human being, that only have a pair of eyes,

have to alert about 10 players in the court.very light-footed players.

kalau lah ada yg walking ke, double dribble ke,

tapi referee x nampak, one of the players yg nampak,

and when he complains about it,

who's gonna decide whether it's a fault or not?

kalau ref kata tak, dah player tu nampak?

kalau ref kata ya, masalahnya, dia x nampak.kalau player tu tipu?

but then, ref je yg akan blh buat decision.

sbb tu lah kot tok abah kata mcm tu.

manusia bukan seratus peratus adil.

sebab tu lah kita, manusia,

tak boleh cepat nak judge org sesuka hati je.

nampak org tu tak buat apa2 hari ni, kita nk kata dia pemalas.

kita x tau maybe semalam, seharian dia kerja pagi petang siang malam.

we don't really have the right to judge others,

especially when we know nothing about them.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : selsema.sakit hidung.

sha la la la la~

2010-12-18T00:16:00.000-08:00

scrolling down my itunes,

wanna pick one song to fill up my afternoon

sha la la la la by vengaboys was chosen..

xde la suka mana pon lagu ni.

it's just that this song reminds me about my father.

because this song was repeatedly

played by one of the radio station

that my dad loves to listen to when we were

on the way to my school every morning..

now i remember, it was light and easy, the radio station.

i love to go down my memory lane..

pagi2, bangun je, siap2, trus naik keta nk gi sekolah..

walaupun sekolah start pkol 7.40,

tapi 6.45 dah kena gerak dari rumah

kalau x mesti akan lambat sbb jalan nk gi sekolah tu selalu jammed.

masuk je dlm keta, papa mesti bukak radio light and easy

all segments of that radio station was conducted in english.

so my dad said it's good to brush up my english katanya.

thanks papa, it does help.or so i thought.heee

bila dh tengahari, dah hbs kelas, papa dah tunggu kat luar.

or kadang2, lambat jugak sbb jalan jam, sbb kwsn tu byk sgt skolah.

tapi xpe, kalo papa lambat, main dulu seround.

sukanya masa tu, x byk masalah.

x banyak nk kena fikir.

masa perjalanan balik ni la yg paling best,

nnt pnjang lebar cerita kt papa apa yg dh belajar hari tu,

papa pon layan je lah, pot pet pot pet.

i love maths and my dad knows that.

nanti ade je lah teka teki yg ade kaitan ngn maths.

pisang la, monyet la.it was fun.

sometimes, my dad will be doing the talking.

cerita pengalaman zaman dulu2.

zaman orang jakun tgk kapal terbang.

zaman xde tiang elektrik, so kena jalan dalam gelap.

zaman udang dijual dgn harga 12 ekor, 10sen.

i love talking with my dad.

because he is a very wise man.

sayang papa.

i wish i can go back to that moment.

i wish that i can always be my dad's little girl.

but it doesn't matter.

even though i've grown up, my dad will always be the wise man.

thinking about this make tears filling up my eyes.

ya.saya anak manja.

let's stop here then.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : saya sayang papa saya.

ni papa ngan abg ngah.papa seronok dpt cucu first.

brand new

2010-12-17T07:47:00.000-08:00

just bought a new thing.

not the latest model though

doesn't matter

i like it.nope.correction.i love it.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : akan jaga sebaik mungkin.

little things, big difference

2010-12-16T23:25:00.000-08:00

yeah,

everyone make mistakes,

but a little respect would make a big difference.

learn to respect others.

or when you are at the end of the road,

NO ONE will respect you.

it's not revenge, it's karma.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : tak susah, tapi bukan senang.

random

2010-12-14T06:22:00.001-08:00

random people

but

HUGE impact

till then,

XOXO

p/s : fair enough?

pedas!

2010-12-03T12:35:00.000-08:00

ada certain org yg baca blog ni,

cakap ngan aku,

kadang2 aku pnya post pedas sgt.

straight forward sgt.

bagi aku xde lah sgt pon.

aku ckp ape yg aku rasa je.

hm..aku dah byk kali dengar bnda ni sbnanye..

tapi, nk buat mcm mana,

mmg ni cara aku. susah nk ubah.

bukan x blh ubah, tp susah.

susah + malas = takkan.

lagi satu point,

certain org mmg blh ditegur dgn cara yg brhemah.

tapi ade sgelintir yg kalau pedas baru nk makan.

u get what i mean?

till then,

XOXO

p/s : ouch, sapa makan lada, terasa la pedasnya.

chemistry

2010-12-03T09:06:00.000-08:00

i'm not going to talk about

that academically-full-of-weird-terms chemistry

i'm going to elaborate about chemistry

that we have between people,

friends, families, colleagues, etc.

ok, first i would like to talk about FAMILY

yes, without any doubt,

we love each and every one of our family members, rite?

but, sometimes, we can't deny the fact that

we have the strongest chemistry with a particular person.

as for me,i'm close to my mother,

but when it comes to chemistry,

i would like to say it's my father.

for example, when i was in high school,

i will call my home phone as it will be

a lil bit cheaper compared to mobile phones,

but then, my father already can guess that it's me calling.

one more thing, every time i sit for an exam,

he can actually tell whether

i'm doing well or not for my exam,

and for me, that's awesome because

he's actually right most of the times.

and that's more than only an instinct of a father.

for me, its chemistry.

now, i'm going to talk about FRIENDS

this is the centre piece actually.

yeah.pepatah melayu ada mengatakan

"berkawan biarlah seribu, berkasih biar satu"

we can go anywhere and we can make new friends.

indeed, we don't have to move an inch also,

we can make friends that is through fb, twitter, etc.

but then, out of that thousands of friends,

i think only a few of them really understand us.

or shall i say, have the chemistry.

contohnya, kita ckp something,

niat kita just nak gurau je,

tapi that person actually take that as a serious matter.

another example,

everyone ada tahap marah masing2.

kita dah ulang byk kali dah ckp kita x suka,

tp org tu, sbb dia x faham kita mcm mana,

dia buat jgak dpn2 kita.

contoh lagi,

cara everyone cakap berbeza,

ada yg lembut, ada yg kasar,

tp dgn sstengah org,

kita x blh nk jadi diri kita sndiri sbb

kadang2 org tu x blh nk terima cara kita.

byk lagi sbnanye contoh2 nya.

i appreciate them.

i appreciate that few people.

i appreciate those who understand me.

i appreciate those who can understand my jokes.

i appreciate those who can really accept myself as me.

and not all of them are here with me now.

till then,

XOXO

p/s : i can get annoyed really fast.

sistem yg sistematik?

2010-11-30T03:12:00.000-08:00

this happen during my viva voce

it doesn't make me feel anything,

but it kept me thinking..

so, the lecturer asked me simple questions,

but i still can't answer it,

it's totally my fault, no doubt about it,

but then, the lecturer asked me,

"which table are you in?" *can u guess which subject it is?

when i answered,

and then he asked "going backwards huh?"

his question that kept me thinking.

is that all that really matters?

kalau student x boleh jawab soalan,

terus risaukan pasal result.

tak terfikir pun that student is having a problem ke?

maybe he/she is having a hard time..

because we really can't predict

when problems are coming to get us..

that's not really in our power..

tapi semua tu x menjadi persoalan utama zaman sekarang.

apa yg penting? result yg penting.

mcm ada satu isu yg nak diketengahkan

by a group of independent actors in a movie

but the movie was banned due to lots of sensitive issue.

but really, the issue brought by them made me open my mind

tp kena open sket lah kalo nk tgk cite tu, GADOH

sbb die ade sentuh isu2 sensitif sket..

tenaga pengajar sungguh2 nk naikkan markah

tp betul ke semua tu 100% for the sake of student?

atau sbb nk naikkan nama institusi/sekolah?

nk make sure dpt nombor 1 dlm ranking?

and to answer the question of my lecturer,

which i don't get a chance,

or to be more specific,

i didn't answer his question because

i still respect him in spite of his sarcasm

i don't care if i have to go to any table

because i'll learn the same thing

with everyone else in the class

it's not that i'll get any special treatment

if i've been in higher table,

it's not that i'll be neglected if i go to lower table.

table reshuffling will not make me feel insecure.